The morning sun was temptingly
warming. Especialy to someone who needed answers in life. "Please master quatre
take it easy, after everything that you've been thorugh you should just take the
day easily" Quatre grabbed his cloths and pulled the sand blown shirt on and
tucked it into his pants. "No rashiid I'm sorry but if I have been having this
happen in the past I still went on as ussual right afterward, so why should it
be any different now?" he opened the bedroom door, to see the whole bunch of the
maguanot corp. surrounding the table in the adjoining room "Hey guys!" they all
tryed to speak at once "Master" "are you ok?" "Why are you up and
around".......... quatre backed up at the sudden explosion of questions from his
caring friends, he backed right against rashiid and rashiid spoke up "We were
all very worried about you last night, you gave us all quite a scare thats for
sure, but dont you worry were here for you, we'll back you up on whatever you
decide" Quatre felt tears sting his eyes "Thanks so much guys I will always know
that I have people who care about me" He felt himself being pulled out of
reallity as flashbacks started pelting his mind he felt dizzy from all the
strain of remembering the losing battles that they had all been in and the
sacrifices made by his friends and his father. it was all to much for his kind
and gentle heart to take. "I just really need to get some fresh air, I'm going
to take a walk now, dont worry I'll be back befor noon" He walked out the door
hearing the familiar voices in the room he left, wispering worriedly about him.
quatre shaded his eyes as he looked up at the ever lightening and clearing sky
'What a beautifal day' he thought 'I wonder what they're doing in the colonies
right now' Quatre still hald a firm hand against his chest, I still dont see how
this could have happened its not denial its just not possible. I'm too young I
know I'm emotional and I'm had painful times befor but still, I just cant let
this pull me down I'v got to stay strong. I really want to fing trowa mayby he
can help me through this. Quatre walked through the desert village. and saw the
many families and variety of people enjoying life naively 'Some people just dont
know how preciouse human life can be, I've learned it the hard way from losing
dear ones and seeing and causing so many deaths, sandrock made that quite clear
but my own life feels like such a small grain of sand in the large pile of life
that continues to grow as humans expand and take up more and more room in this
universe.' He smiled at the thought that he does understand the value of living
'I'll enjoy the day as it is.'
"The dead man has returned from his lost
quests, only to return to a time when he shall rest in.. not in peace,..." zechs
said as he walked down the hill of the empty street "my soul has so much torment
in its past that I would never be able to leave peacefully My emotions are
torchered, how could I ever love" Zechs walked along with a broken look upon his
face. "I know alot about life but only in the aspect of hurt, and of war. all
the calculations and information, and it all seams to have been spent in vain"
Zechs, gasped and squinted at the sun ever rising in the city sky 'someones
following me' his eyes moved like lighteneing and flashed to the streetcorner
behind him, zechs mouth curled to a growl "who is it?" the person in the shadows
moved alittle out to be more visible "Sorry to impose but I heard your little
conversation with yourself I would like to ask a small favor?" the stranger came
out into the light. Zecks squinted again wishing he could hide his shamed face,
but he put his hands limp at his sides still feeling the numbing throb on his
injured hand "Again I ask" zechs started calmly "Who are you?" zechs looked at
the stranger who had a dusty brown gold hair which gently brushed his shoulders,
and had brillient green blue eyes the stranger couldnt be much younger than
himself "Do I know you?" zechs said softening up a bit when this young man
looked familiar "You might, for I know you quite well" the young mans voice was
strong yet gentle he hadnt been through much pain for he had such a pure look
about him, zechs wasnt sure what to think of this young man he could tell he was
a soldier from the way he even held himself, 'Can I trust him, is he a spy?' the
young man still hung around the corner of the building as if he were afraid to
approach zechs "You say you feel as if your training and knowledge is in vain,
but I beg to differ." the young man finally gathered the courage to walk towards
zechs 'My fingers tremble what are they seeking, I know him from so many times
but this is so different I am not under his command yet I seek him out, is this
fate controling me that I am to learn from this man or am I clouding over my
eyes the harm he could bring' the young mans head went in a spin and he heard
words being spoken from his own mouth that seamed lost in the wind his mind felt
separate from his body, He could feel the afternoon sun heating even the breeze
around him, he could see almost from above the tall and yet rugged man in front
of him that had such an honor about him as the breeze swept his white gold hair
to and fro, but he could see himself a much more scrawny and indignant person
who looked up to an idol long since dead in the hearts of the many soldiers
still left but kept alive in his own. "I am Jonathan I am captain of the armed
earthsphere protection unit and am part of the preventers, I have been sent in
search for the former lightening barron, but..." the young mans voice changed
and he looked deep in zechs face "I also came on my own accord, lets get rid of
formality, thats why I didnt wear my uniform I served under you in many cases of
the past I was taught by liutenant lucreitzia noin at the lake victoria base,
and I also served under you during the time when you were the leader of white
fang" zechs eyes were bloodshot from lack of rest, he thought of the past and
when noin was the teacher of the lake victoria base, he remembered the time when
he first entered back into her life looking for information on the new space
taurus suits and to inform her of the enemy's intentions of targeting the base,
he knew it that night that for him to return for her saftey that his feelings
went deper than those he had for others , but he had let his heart grow numb so
the emotions and feelings normaly felt by others were harder for him to decifer.
"If you were under my comand then how did you get into the united earsphere now,
didnt they punish all who followed me" jonathan was surprised to see that zechs
showed a bit of interest and would even speak to him. "Well. they realized that
you only took over the white fang in an order to attemp at unifying the fighting
nations, I at least saw that you were the only one with the strength and the
views to take things into your own hands." Zechs eyes narrowed "I only had nerve
not strength, if I had strength I wouldnt have had to rely on the gundam piolets
to end that rampage, I was under the influence of epyon I knew it had to take
someone rebelling against treize, the romafellers, and the colonies, to start a
whole new revelution which would hopefully end the bickering between earth and
the colonies, but instead I let my mind and heart become over clouded, I wanted
to find what was right and in the end I learned to late" 'Even noin couldnt turn
me around' he then thought to himself Jonathan scanned the nearby streets and
lowered his head in thought 'What am I thinking coming up against him like this
I want to show him that I can be a friend not a foe and help him but I dare
challenge his incentives, what am I thinking' he looked up with a deep passion
of love of the unity of earth but you knew he loved the soldiers battles "You
faught good and true in marie maia's battle the last waltz You, and noin faught
hard for the effect of teaching the soldiers under bartons control a thing or
two about the sactity of life, I knwo that life is worth living and thats what
you taught me and others around you, the gundam piolets fuaght beside you in
that battle also, if anything it united pewoples every where and made our lives
stronger and more meaningful than ever, so dont give up you have much value in
your life" zechs looked at this new young man his face softened "Nobody's talked
to me like that befor" but he lowered his head 'Thats what noin keeps trying to
tell me but I always scarfed at her I never though she could be this strong, I
shoundlt have left her, but what to do now' jonathan kicked at a stone on the
sidewalk "I have always looked up to you, I didnt know if youde accept me I want
to find the true soldier in myself, but keep my heart at the same time I want to
train under you and learn from you" zechs finaly snapped back into reallity when
he felt the burn of his hand again, he closed his eyes and gritted his teeth
"Whats wrong with me" his eyes opened in an accursed look upon his face "No I am
alone in the world now, I cannot continue on like this I am not worthy to care
for anyone or to have anyone care for me I'm sorry but find someone else to tag
along behind thier heels, you dont want a dead man in you acknowledgement" zechs
stormed past the overtacken young soldier. Jonathan stood in aghast at the
strong and untamed man that walked down away from him his eyes quivered as did
his soul, 'I am not worthy? what does he mean' jonathan felt an anger well in
his throat, 'he'll see I'll make him come to his senses, I have to follow and
keep an eye on him anyway.
Zechs stumbled thru the doorway of the library
building, he held his arm 'This darn thing is infected, mayby I should cut it
off' he thought to himself with a sneer on his face. I know theres got to be
someone out there that would understand me but why is it that I thrash about and
keep changing and jumping from choice to choice' his eyes darted to the doorway
behing him to see the stern face of the young soldier, 'I knew he was following
me, what is he trying to prove?' zechs went to the room where they kept all the
newspaper articles. he started thumbing thru the ones published during and
directly after the final war. Jonathan walked thru the room "What are you
looking for?" Zechs stopped what he was doing, his eyes narrowed "Did I say you
could follow me,?" jonathan plomped himself down in the chair that had the
computer in front of it and started typing on the electronic files, "What year
are you looking for?" zechs shut the drawer that held the clippings, "AC195 of
course" he dicided to humor the young man. jonthans hands flew over the keys as
he skimmed looking up the articals on the war, "I know what your looking for."
"Do you really" zechs said sitting down by him with a smart grin on his face "I
dont think you know me as well as you think, I dont even know how to read all my
own thoughts." Zechs grabbed the keyboard from in front of jonathan and started
typing himself, "What, dont look so surprised, I did learn a thing or to being
in the colonies all this time I havent exactly lived primitively" jonathan
leaned back in the chair looking up at the murals painted on the ceiling, "I was
going to ask where you've been hidden out all this time?" zechs closed his eyes,
a few strands of his hair fell in front of his face leaving him in a pitiful
looking state with his drawn out pale face and bloody wrapped hand "I havent
been hiding, I'v been staying out of the way, for relena's sake and noins too"
the captain jumped alittle at the mention of noin "Is luitenant noin ok? Is she
still working for the preventers, the colonies sectors are not on our files?"
zechs looked back up at the screen 'there it is' he thought. he started up and
walked back to the cabinets "She's fine and yes she's still a preventer she's
been quite busy latley" he started looking again, and pulled out an old torn
newspaper, the heading read: 500 LOST TO THE FINAL WAR, SACRIFICE FOR PEACE!
"Sacrifice for peace~~!!!!! they know nothing" zechs growled then started
looking in the different colomns "list of soldiers involved in the war," he
started skimming 'so many men M.I.A.' then he ran accross his own name :Zechs
Merquise=Deceased. So they really do think I'm dead. jonathan loked up in
admiration at the man he had been trying to folow "Yea the only ones that think
your still alive are noin relena a few of the preventers and the gundam piolets
there are very few others that know your alive including most of the soldiers"
he bent down to look at the paper also, "Hey look treize was only proclaimed as
M.I.A. ohh yea I remember they never did find his body" jonathan exclaimed.
Zechs pupils went so small and his heart went silent for a moment. "NO.......
TRIEZE...... ~~~~~~~you cant haunt me like that, this CANT
be.........~~~~~~~!!!!!"
