Zechs looked at his sleeping mate laying in the bed next to him. "Ohhhhhhh, oh zechs ....the pain"said noin. she sat up and gripped her stomach and doubled over "man I wish I didnt have to be bedridden, every time I move I am in pain" zechs sighed and lowered his head in thought "thats why the doctor said that you'd better stay resting," he reached over and took her hand with his eyes still closed "noin your body just isnt right for carrying a child. I just wish you'd take the needed rest" he breathed out like it hurt him to show such compasion "noin I dont know what I would do without you" He opened his eyes to see her reaction to the sudden show of emotion from him, even he knew it wasnt like him noin looked up in surprise with sweat on her head then closed her eyes and smiled "ohh zechs if only you knew how I felt about you hmmmm" she breathed out relaxed and leaned over against his chest and snuggled against his strong chest pulling fistfulls of his shirt into her hands "all those years I longed to do this and just have you close to me and having you hold me, I feel so safe with you" she looked up into his sparkling surprised blue eyes "ohh zechs dont be so surpried I've said this lots of times, I never want to leave your side" she put her face down again and shuved it into his shirt to wipe away the tears forming in her eyes "Just let me stay like this till I fall asleep becaus I dont feel the pain when I'm with you" zechs gave into the mment and put his arms protectivley around her and put his face into her hair and breathed in he didnt say a word, 'there are no words for a moment like this' he thought and he settled back into the couchand closed his eyes. 'she always did look beautiful when she slept' he thought. no, could he be feeling love, 'I canot' he thought ' my past is glutted in blood and taking of lives' he shuddered at the memories and a scoul came to his face 'ohh if only I hadnt made so many mistakes mayby she really could be proud of me, and mayby I could really love her' he stopped thinking that way 'no I must think of noin and the baby' he caught his breath again, every time he thought about it he would accualy realise, he had created a living being which was inside of noin he reached dont and placed his hand on her stomack where it was prominatly where the baby was he tightened his grip around her and cringed at the thought and said outloud while she slept "I did this to you, if only I'd have known thst your body couldnt handle it I would have tryed not to make that mistake, but because of me now you are suffering, DARN!!!" he shouted. noin moved a little and settled her body more firmly into his. he looked down at her compasionatly and hugged her closer "It wasnt enough that I led you into those darn wars or into the rebelion and then because of your love of space and of me you trained those soldiers and went into war and you did all that because of me, me! I!!! caused this pain for you!!!!!" he sat up from the couch and getly moved her body away from his and layed her against the pillows on the couch he silently walked across the room and looked out into the colony "how naive people can be, they give up their freedom for love" he slammed his fist against the windowsill. then turned and looked at his sleeping mate. he walked over to where she layed and knelt down by her side. he ran a finger over her face and gave a smile "you'll have to forgive me" he held her body against his one last time and felt the warmth of her heart and of the baby which was growing in her "I must leave for now, please care for your needs, all I have done is cause more pain, mayby if I leave for a while you can have a true life" he stood up to leave and then leaned over and kissed her one gentle last kiss on the lips "goodby my...uh..love,,,,,,," he turned without another look back at the sleeping noin as he walked in the colony he looked up at the artificial sky which man created for people of the colony to feel more free and he said with pain in his voice "Its like I'm gunning down a romance, all that is in my blood is pain and suffereing, all feeling love has done for me is bring heartache and misery to myself and to those I care about" he looked down at the dusty earth on the colony's floor "It's nothing but a tragedy, love dont leave me...... 'I need my wings to fly away, away from this pain or the defeat" he stopped and looked back at the building which he had left his sleeping noin he breathed out in defeat "I wont give up yet, I'll be back but I must find a way to cover the stains of my life" 'you'll see' he thought as he looked down again then he looked over to the port of transmissions "you'll see, ther'll be another Milliardo Peacecraft again and I'll see to it that peace will riegn and..." then his face changed and he softly finished "and then will you no longer suffer noin and mayby our child will have a life worth living" zechs turned and walked towards the port to catch a flieght back towards the earth, in seach of relena and of the fighting of the inner soldier which would never leave his consience.
Zechs watched the stars flying by the window 'not much has changed thats for sure' he looked at the other passengers. A few men, probably some enjeniers from the colony, and a couple women and one or two children. but he noticed a young man sitting next to probably his mate and she was holding a newborn child, they were probably heading back to earth so theyre child could have a half way decent life. zechs closed his eye 'once I wanted to destroy the earth but now how I long for the comfort of the sunrises and the sunsets , I guess they calmed my inner self,' he placed his hand on the glass and looked back at the colony fading out of site only to remain as the stars 'noin,......' he closed his eyes as a single tear drifted own his face. then with avengence he looked to the front of the craft, where the earth was coming into site "Darn Darn Darn" every one turned and looked at him like they were scared of him zechs closed his eyes in meditation 'they should be scared of me' he thought 'they do not know what threats I can harbor, they do not recignise me for they think that the ages of war are over,' he smiled in complete oblivion 'OZ didnt know what they were creating when they trained me first to be a soldier in their reins, they should have known when I moved up so fast to be in command of what I was, Trieze, if only you hadnt turned on me, a friendship we had, we could have had so much' he turned and looked out the window again and continued 'but I still would have found in my heart that I didnt really want to bring on all that pain' he gripped the edge of the seat in anger 'you still would have turned on me, you were only a puppet whose strings were being pulled by the romafeller's' zechs layed his head bach against the seat, 'I'll rest for now'
Noin rolled over on the couch 'ohh that fool he left me here' she thought then slowly sat up and yelled to the other room "ya know it doesnt hurt you to show your soft side every so once and a while, you arent wearing that mask anymore" she laughed and said "comon zechs come here help me up" she looked aroiund the abandoned room, with the fake sunlight streaking in on the floor, she began to feel a sudden and stong lonliness, Zechs was always quiet but something was different she could feel it, it was almost like she could feel the pain that his heart was feeling "no" she said out loud "no..~!!!!!!!!" she screamed and jumped off the couch abandonig her resting position, she didnt even look in the adjoining rooms, she only ran to the window where he had stood only hours ago, she slammed her hands agains the wall "NOOOOOOO~~~~~!!!!!!!!!" she slid to the floor crying she leaned over and huged her knees to her chest in the sudden pain after her jumping up as she did . she screamed in the pain, not from the child in her but from the pain of the thought of zechs not being beside her she got on her knees and looked out at the colonys hustle and bustle her eyes scanned the area in case he had only just left, she couldnt even see through the tears in her eyes "why have you left me again" she said "I waited befor for you, I have always stood on your terms waiting for you to make up for your mistakes and standing on the sidelines while you threw your life away. and I was there fighting right along side you I was there to watch your back. and now when I need you most, even just to see your face close to mine again, you are gone" she turned and with what little strength she had she pulled herself over to the bedroom and crawled up onto the bed in a huddle, she could hardly breath she was crying so hard, "zechs you always were the heartbreaker but this is not like you, what are you trying to make me understand. I know the only reason you do things is because they have some deep meaning in your life your a deep thinker you must have thought it was for my own good" she turned over and huged herself even tighter on the bed and layed huddled "if its was for my good why does it hurt so?" she cryed herself back to sleep.
Zechs breathed in deeply befor unboarding the craft. "Hmm I wonder how my dear sister is doing" he smirked "I just hope I dont stratle her too much by returning to earth" he stepped off the platform, "earths beauty is unsurpassed, I wonder why I didnt notice it befor" he looked at the gardens lining the walkway to the airport "Somethings missing, I feel so unnatural here, I am so used to the fact that when I come I will be walking into a mobile suit battle, the hatred of people will never change, they all think that by keeping it under the rug that everyone will forget about the adrenalin rush that killing brings, or that they will forget the deep understood power that you feel by pioleting a mobile suit" he looked up at the clear blue sky with his eyes quivering, his forhead broke out in a sweat he growled while clenching his fists "If only things could have stayed the same, I accualy enjoyed the harmless training, and of all those times that I pioleted tallgeese and how tallgeese saved me from triezes attempt on my life.... DARN, why do I keep having these feelings, am I trying to forget about noin, no because when I think of the past I see her smiling face and the way she was befor all the pain of bearing a child I see when we were in school together and how she did not want to surpass me, she helb back on her grades just so that I would rank as top student and she would come in second, she has saved my life many a times befor. she is week in my eyes now. But what strength she showed in the battle." he turned as he walked out of the station and started heading for the United Earths Sphere "Did I leave her when I shouldnt. Noooo" he stopped and gripped his fist again "I want to hide my face I am a disgrace to all who have known me" he stopped and looked at the headquarters right in front of his eyes. His heart stood still, 'this is where OZ was set up for all those years' "treize what happened to our aristocratical oath, I have no place in a peaceful; nation such as this, I am ashamed of who I am" he turned and walked into the neighboring bar. "What to do, Is the last choice always left on my shoulders" he looked at his hands "I am still covered in the blood of the warring nations, I had such honor as the lightoning barron" He sat at the bar to drown out the pains of his heart and soul.
"Someone has seen zechs marquise?~!" said the luitenant "Thats imposible, Zechs marqiuse has been dead since the final battle of a.c. 195, I should know along as everyone else that knows because I was in that battle along side his greatness trieze, god rest his soul" he bowed his head in rememberence then the attendant came forward and cleared his throat "Uhh sir the ligtening barron was seen in the battle with the bartons and marie meia he came forth in secrecy as the preventer wind He obviously survived the explosion when the winged zero stopped that piece of space craft from diving to the earth, and must I remind you that zechs marquise also has calle dhimself Milliardo Peacecraft, although that was never proven fact, there is good speculation that it is true, If he really has returned to earth we must find out his intentions, becaus ehe knows more of the millitary tactics than the whole earths sphere knows, He was second to treize who trusted him so." the captain eyed the young man who was obviously proud that he knew so much about the former littening barron, "young man" he spoke up "how is it that you know so much about this zechs marquise?" the young man suddenly looked up from his thoughts and his eyes went glassy while he remembered his past "well, I was taught by the lake victoria acadamy for the speacial elite space forces back in the wars of a.c. 195 I was taught by Luitenent Lucretzia Noin who was second in class to Zechs she taught us all very well but she also would teach us of many of the tactics that the litening count, at that time he was called, used. she really did have feelings for him and when he returned to pair up with her for opperation daybreak, that was when OZ thought of the Gundams as the enemy and the gundam#5 which we know now as the shenlong gundam and its piolet chang wufie had attempted to defeat the victoria base and it just happened that zechs was there and if it haddent been for him we would have lost all the new space taurus suits, wufie had set explosives in the area where most of the new piolet trainees ha dthere barraks, so then is when I lost many of the men I trained with, and noin was shooken up that he would attack helpless soldiers instead of the mobile suits she spilled he heart that night and what few soldiers were left saw how she was with zechs and after that we all joined forces with him and noin whe he led the rebelion of the white fang because we learned of how good of a soldier and leader he was, he could master numerouse mobile suits and he knew all there was about the romafellers and OZ and the other numerouse military forces. we all looked up to him and when we all joined the united earths sphere after the white fangs defeat he supposedly had died but really he only stayed in hiding, then when marie meia's forces posed a threat to earth the gundams and the preventer wind, which was zechs and also noin helped save earth once more, so as you can see that there is more than just a threat that he posesd, no one has tamed that man" the captain looked in awe at the young mans way that he looked up and admired zechs"are you quite done what you were saying"he said trying not to smile "Anyway as I was saying he must be here and we need someone to go and find him and find out what his intentions are that is if he really is here" the young mans briliant hazel eyes sparkles in the afternoon sun he smiled with such a genuine smile "I would be glad to volenteer" he said bringing his hand up to his forhead to salute the captain looked at him "no this isnt a volenteer job" the young man looked down disheartened then the luitenant continued "No young sir this is a true mission, and I expect a detailed report and you will have the extra salary because I want you to stick right with him so there are no probalems with former associats that might not be as happy as you are that he's here" the young man looked like he had been shot down "yes young man of course I can see it, your eyes gleam when you speak of him its like he was your father or something" the young man toyed at a rock with the toe of his boot "well he always was a head figure I looked up to him although he probably never knew I even existed, I always wanted to work up in my training to be like him, he thought about every move he made befor he made it. sure mayby he was weong in some of his thinking when it came to the rebelion but eneryone maked mistakes its just nmot commun for him to so when he does everyone thinkd its the end of the world"the young man chuckled at his attempt at humor. and the luitenant coughed alittle, "well" he said "you'dd better go get a couple of other sodiers to go with you 'captain' " the young man looked up with a start "captain?, sir?" the luitenant replyed "well I was going to have you brought up to captain sooner but things kept getting in the way and now is as good of a time as any, and dont you think that luitenant zechs would be proud to speak to someone higher than a private" the young man looked at the pin that the luitenant had oustreched in his hand and then with such a stern look he reached out his cold hand and took it from the luitenent who was smiling proudly "I dont know how to thank you.." the luitenant interupted him befor he could say anything more, "you shouldnt thank me because you've done your job and this is what comes when you work hard enough and are a good enough soldier, that'll be all Captain, just get to work on this mission of yours" the captain soluted the liutenant befor exiting the area and as he walked towards the office he thought 'Father you would be proud if you had known' he closed his eyes feeling proud of himself and feeling fulfilled that all was falling into place.
"Before the past wars began there was a time of oblivion for the nations. They never knew what good they had untill they took advantage of the peaceful times and lost what they did have. Then one by one nations started fighting and becomeing independant, and this led to the beginning of wars again and thus mankind wanted to create bigger and more powerful weapons, but no matter how lagre or how powerful these weapons grew to be it was note enough....." zechs toyed with the glass in his hand, his body cowered under the alcahols influence but he looked down at the last drops of alchahol that swirled in the botom of the glass, he looked at the vast managerey of pictures of mobile suits that were displayed on the wall behind the bar, then he continued "then came along the first enginiers that created the first large mobile robots that had the design for harboring vast machinery, guns and other artillery. soon to men it still wasnt enough again just to have these oversized killing machines, they wanted to feel the power benieth them, for many ages in the past killing has brought some sort of thrill to those who are trained for nothing better. So again many people made up of designers and engeniers and millitary powers put some ideas together to form the first mobile suits that a man could control from inside it, every move could be made all by individule movements of the hands and arms. This was all so that soldiers could feel the power and control that these mobile suits gave them, this was the goal at the time. With some training any person could piolet these machines and make them fight! No matter what, this even wasnt enough, humans wanted more of them and they wanted stronger and more manueverable machines, and t5his went on and on, first they created the tallgeese. but found it really was to large for their needs, and soon they created the different suits that were used in the war of a.c. 195 by OZ some known as the aries, taures leo's and many other land and sea worthy machines, and then there was the gundams, and the mobile dolls which were more powerfull and more disposable than pioleted suits, there were less deaths but war had no meaning. then came the Zero system" zechs eyes dialated and he felt cold sweep over his body, he clenched at his jacket under the stool and continued "that system is like a demon to the body, it takes control of your thoughts and makes then into an action, if a person can accualy master a zero system it will give then a future, a path that they can walk with surity, but as I found out It takes more than skill it takes a pure mind and heart also, many men and scientists still cannot fully understand the zero's capabuility's and VERY few can accualy handle that darn system" the room went in a breif hush in zechs outburst, he thought silently of the past and he closed his eyes 'How thrilled I was to master my suit the tallgeese, but how horrid it was when I pioleted Epyon,, I thought I had it in my control but really it was controlling me, It took over my thoughts, so again I reallize that I do not have the right to love anyone' he looked down at the glass, swung the last bit of burning drink into his mouth and clenched the glass so tight that it broke in his hand. he savored and swallowed the last bit of alchohol while the blood oozed from the veins in his hand where the broken glass was shoved into it he clenched his hand even tighter, the pain felt numbing to all these past pains built up, that wanted to explode, mayby he could focus on this pain streaming from these cuts and forget his hateful past he continued to speak "The beginnings of the mobile suits are what turned this planet into a hell hole of hatred and wars and killing for sport, and it eventually with greta difficulty led us up to where we are in history" he stopped short and let his hand fall limp at his side, letting the shales of glass fall loose from the wounds he looked at the old man next to him that had fallen asleep drunk "Yes your right old man" he said with a sneer "Peace for some must come from sleep, but I cannot rest, for my heart and soul are filled with the demons of my past and what I've done to mankind" he stood up slowly left some change on the counter and walked out into the night to be alone in the shadows of darkness.
